[It's the sort of thing he has to let other people be horrified about for him. He just can't be, even with the nightmares having that spirit put in him has been causing-- the thing is his responsibility, as he sees it. He'd asked for its containment because he hadn't been able to clean up his own mess after he couldn't keep it from getting through, and maybe it's appropriate that now he gets to deal with this.
Ryan's still exhausted, though, slumping against him. It's a heavy conversation for how tired he is.]
And don't worry, I was more careful with my second. I just-- didn't fully realize what I was dealing with when I signed on, you know? I don't regret doing it, but it wasn't til I got to Ajna that I understood.
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[It's the sort of thing he has to let other people be horrified about for him. He just can't be, even with the nightmares having that spirit put in him has been causing-- the thing is his responsibility, as he sees it. He'd asked for its containment because he hadn't been able to clean up his own mess after he couldn't keep it from getting through, and maybe it's appropriate that now he gets to deal with this.
Ryan's still exhausted, though, slumping against him. It's a heavy conversation for how tired he is.]
And don't worry, I was more careful with my second. I just-- didn't fully realize what I was dealing with when I signed on, you know? I don't regret doing it, but it wasn't til I got to Ajna that I understood.