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you had options, oren. could've told him they would talk to him about it and let me know he was pressing you for an answer, or something.

>You killed me, and you mean to press me on this?
>I'm sorry for whatever he may have said in response, Ryan, but do try to see this from my point of view.
>If the impact of that hideous form of mine wasn't enough, you abandoned whatever it is we had without so much as a word to me and coupled with my roommate.
>The first moment I felt that I had some control, back to my normal form, I lost myself to hunger and nearly ate Mattias myself.
>Only to run and be found by you.

>But really, I suppose moments after rising from the second death this month, I should have considered my words more carefully.
>I never did manage that well enough.

[There's a lot here he should reply to, but that one line makes him stop and zero in. Nearly ate Mattias?]

you what

he didn't tell me

>He didn't?

>Of course he didn't.
>He wouldn't even raise an arm to stop me.
>...He's still recovering. His stomach, though I'm certain he'd rather not say a thing.

no, he just fucking lectured me on not telling him instead

i

look, i'll give you the same answer i gave him. i didn't want to do it, oren. i really didn't.

any of it. hurting you, either. but i thought you made it pretty clear you weren't the exclusive sort of person.

>I know that from my own experience.
>The hunger, at least...

>I shouldn't speak on the rest with things as they are now.
>He's difficult, isn't he?
>The most stubborn man I know. A terrible hypocrite. Completely blindsided to his own faults.
>But he cares for you.

and for you.

he was pretty upset about it.

[Briefer responses than he'd normally give, but between this conversation and the one with Mattias--

He's trying really hard not to get angrier with Oren.]

>You misunderstand.
>Any arguments he may have given were entirely for his own sake.
>He hadn't known, so he felt slighted. That's all.

i don't buy that for a second, oren.

[Not when Mattias admitted to falling for him before, to still caring for him-- referred to him not that long ago as the person closest to him.]

>Believe what you wish. I've no intention of telling you any more that Mattias hasn't.
>Unlike him, I believe we all have secrets or things we withhold to avoid hurting others.

>You're angry with me?

yes.

i meant to tell him. i just didn't know how to do it without it hurting more than it should've.

>I know that.
>Who can expect someone to tell them that they've killed their friend?
>Is he angry as well, then? It's without reason.
>It always passes.

>I am sorry, Ryan.
>I refused to tell him and he pushed me.
>I felt I owed him an answer after causing him so much harm.

he seemed pretty fucking angry, yes.

but i guess i can understand why you'd do it, knowing what happened.

>I believe you would have done the same, at least.
>And I wouldn't have blamed you for it.

>But this is hardly my only wrongdoing, so if anger towards me somehow helps you, then I'm glad.
>Whatever help I may offer is something, at least.

>But I do selfishly hope it will pass.
>I'm not expected to stop speaking to you entirely, am I?

of course you're not, oren.

i'm still speaking to you right now.

i thought you wanted to avoid me.

>No.
>I only wanted to avoid any selfish feelings that came along with it.
>I do hope you'll forgive me.

i probably will.

i still don't want to lose you as a friend, you know that, right?

i just don't know how to deal with all of this the right way

>I wasn't sure how to tell.
>You should know I already feel the same.
>And I already forgive you.
>But what more can I do but wait for you to approach me?
>I think I've pressed you enough.
>I won't do it any longer.

>I'll be here if you need me at any point, as I always have been.

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